Prince Caspian and No...I haven't dropped off the face of the earth...sometimes I just wish I had

So...went with Beth to see Prince Caspian after our dinner date tonight. Holy fucking shit WOW. It was amazing, and beautiful, and so poetically metaphoric and symbolic that Beth and I sent most of the ride back to her house comparing our views on the symbolic parts of the movie (okay, so like...all of it). It was amazingly done and even better than the first one which is impressive considering how awesome the first one was. I'd get more into it but I'm tired as hell after just getting home. Rereading all of those books....starting tomorrow after I read Twilight because Beth told me too.

Other than that, Finals are finally done. They actually almost killed me this semester between final projects, final exams, asshole teachers and additional stuff. Add in to that physical therapy and going back to work but not being allowed to go back to work and I've been pretty fucking miserable. I've been stressed, tired, cranky, depressed and all together emotionally and mentally worn out. Work is lowballing me left and right (I actually had it out with one of the managers, now one of our departments, but one of them) and it has been all I could do to keep it together...just barely...if at all.

The puppy we fostered was returned to us after a week when they decided they couldn't handle a puppy. It's just been really difficult. I REALLY love this dog. It was hard enough giving her away in the first place, and now I have to do it all over again. But David's not ready for another dog and nothing I do or say can reassure him that we'd be fine. We have completely different outlooks on the whole things and its actually killing me inside a little. My heart is breaking with her having to part with her again. She fits in so well here. But if I force David to keep the dog he'll just be angry and unhappy and waiting for it all to fall apart. I don't want him to resent her or a choice we'd make like this. So I have to let her go again and its ripping my damn heart out. And it sucks even more because there's nothing I can do about it. But this is me of course, so I do the right thing and find her a great home and let her go and everything is fine. Just fine.

I really need a vacation, a few thousand dollars and break.

Saw the Dresden Dolls again in concert Wednesday. FUCKING AMAZING. The cheapest show we'll pay to go see all year and probably the best show we'll see as well. This was even better than the last time we saw them in concert. I swear, I'm going to buy tickets every time they're in LA. Its always worth it. I think other than dinner and a movie with Beth its been the one bright spot this week.

Life kinda really sucks right now. I'm hoping it can only get better, but it might be easier to believe if it would stop kicking me when I'm down.

Oh yeah, CS Lewis is a fucking genius.

Seriously.

Sio